Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Self induced peer pressure

Still on my "hopeless romantic high" from a couple posts ago, I decided to watch "Enchanted" on Sunday. I heard so many amazing things about this movie through word-of-mouth and on a friend's blog. I made a pack with myself that I would finally get around to watching it when it came on demand. I must say...I throughly enjoyed myself. It was the definition of a "feel good" movie with several cute lines that made me smile from the inside out. The movie not only brought back the whole "Cinderella vibe" for me, but it also made me think a lot about past relationships. The "feeling" you get when you are interested in someone is like no other. The movie highlighted that feeling, and made a point to express the significance of its existence. Sometimes that feeling is just not there, while other times people can push the feeling aside with excuses. Of course, that did not happen in the movie, because in all good fairy tales, they must live "happily ever after". It is not the type of movie that I would usually watch, but I am glad that "I fell into" the movie by self induced peer pressure.

Not sure how long I will continue on this "so optimistic about the potential for love" kick, but the movie did make me think of the song "Realize" by Colbie Caillat. I would post the lyrics, but the last time I went searching for song lyrics I downloaded a million viruses...so, if you haven't heard it, I would suggest listening to it.

Monday, April 21, 2008

My Heart

The pounding beats of emotion.


An African drum
dancing with each breath.


Keeping time with the moment.


to the sweet stillness
of my heart.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

The Hopeless Romantic

A recent conversation got me thinking...

I want to preface this post by telling a story...when I was teaching kindergarten, a student asked "Miss Pack, what is the thing you wanted most as a little girl?" I thought about this question, and remembering my obsession with Cinderella, I said "to find my prince charming." Weeks later, the same little boy colored and cut out a picture of a prince, and said "I just wanted to make sure that you would get your prince charming." Of course, I melted.

I have never lost my desire or hope to find my prince. My dating and marriage history has been pretty disastrous to say the least. I truly have every reason to swear off the process of finding a soul mate, but I haven't. I sometimes wonder what keeps me going, and what makes me think that there is someone out there perfect for me. I KNOW what I want, but knowing and achieving are two different things. I can be such a wuss at times, but I have never been afraid to put my heart out there time and time again. I am a risk-taker when it comes to dating. I am willing to at least try, and see what happens. Sometimes, a wonderful relationship can be lurking under one's nose, or waiting around the next corner, and ignoring it could be yet another missed opportunity.

As the saying goes..."it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved before". I agree fully. Remembering those feelings of first meeting someone, and the happiness of a new relationship, aides in my determination and drive. Not all relationships are going to be good, but the end result has the potential to be so magical. I would rather try, and get hurt time and time again, rather than never experience the emotions of love and intimacy.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Poems for my Mood

"The lost child cries, but still he catches fireflies". -Ryusui Yoshida
The Sun Pulls the Weeds
A lonely Coke can lies forgotten
in the grass;
the sun pulls the weeds up over
its rusted body.
A pine tree stands nearby,
its branches like outstretched arms;
it serves as a perch for a misplaced robin,
who calls for its mate.
The breeze blows over me,
lifting my thoughts to the days ahead.
-Christopher Lenat (1970-1991) Grade 12
The Explorer
The traveler in me awakens
As I sleep at night
Without burden of my body
My soul can wander
To faraway and distant places
Within myself
-Tia Witherspoon Grade 9
There's a feeling inside
me that has no end.
There's a feeling inside
me that never began.
-Pia Wright Grade 8